when it rains, it pours.

hey guys. So I think I have reached my breaking point. Lots of things happened to me this week that I would rather not discuss but it led me to shut down my Facebook and phone. I think it is for the best, at least for a little while. I need some time to myself, to get myself together and figure things out. I had a very bad week as you can tell.. So i think its the best and only choice. 


I haven't told you the most recent news with the guy that I was dating, then broke up with, then got back together with, then broke up with again and then it just turned into a huge mess, but basically after my trip from AZ he wanted to hangout and I flat out told him no. I was nice about it, I explained to him that I just wasn't comfortable with it and so on. He got mad and sent me this page long email basically telling me that he never did anything wrong, I changed and I am a bitch and basically goodbye. I didn't reply, but needless to say that definitely did not start the week off well. I haven't talked to him since then and I just feel so alone. We dated for 2 years, that is my longest relationship and he was there for some important moments in my life. Graduation, going away to college, and he was there when I had no one else. So it's not that I miss him I miss the thought of him, the feeling of always having that someone I could count on. It sucks but like they say, you have to put up with the rain before we can see the rainbow.. so I am hoping thats what this is.. but you know what they also say..


when it rains.. it pours